Hello there, the Angel from my nightmare...

I finally left. For good this time. I wish I could say that I did it willingly, but that would be a complete and utter lie. I don't know what happened. I really wish that I could pinpoint the moment where it all went wrong. Friends, that's what we were supposed to be above all. I know now that that was a lie. For the longest time I wanted to be back there, trying to convince myself of why it was a good idea to stay. Now, I know that I can't go back. It wasn't good. You have me stuck in my head, almost constantly. Everything was built on a hunch and a feeling. Now looking back I can't say that I regret not leaving. Everything happens for a reason right? I'm starting to believe that now. You have attempted coming back, I have learned that's just because she is gone. What concerns me is the way you ignite my creative flame. I think I can safely say that no one has made me write, draw, or be as motavated as you have. I don't know what it is about you that pulls this out of me. Because of this I have tried to keep you in my mind. That just seems to drive me insane. The one thing that has pulled me out of this...obsession, is him. I can't say that i'm suprised by this. She told me today that she thought that I was in love with him. It's true. I'm completley head over heals in love with him. I think that I have been since I first laid eyes on him. Though there have always been circumstances that have kept us apart. Part of this i'm glad about. I don't want us to ever have that awkward break up, or just any awkwardness between us. Nor any bad feelings or ill will towards eachother. so i suppose i'll just keep you in my mind. Keep a part of you and learn more about myself through you. I know that it seems crazy but just like everyone else i'm just trying to get by.