And so the Lion Fell in Love with the Lamb

Wonderland Can be an amazing place. That is until you realize Wonderland isn't actually that wonderful.
Everyone seems to be living in a wonderland of their own. Somehow they man manage to not have employment or any source of income at all but yet here they are night after night. Event after event giving the illusion that they are every bit the person you want to be and be around. Slowly stepping back after being thrust into a world of lies and empty promises can be quite disheartening. How can one continue to live their life barely fooling even themselves that they are living?
I have found it is easier to fool yourself into believing that you are crawling when in actuality you are at best at a stand still. The only thing that seems to give you the courage to open your eyes is the fact that you can't breathe. You can't breathe because you and everything around you has stopped. Not because there was something that has taken your breath away. The feeling as though you are living in a movie does not come from how perfect things seem, even if those things are perfectly awful. The feeling comes from watching yourself going in circles and making the same mistakes over and over. It feels like a movie because you have become so jaded that you expect nothing and want even less.

If I could dream at all, it would be about you. And I’m not ashamed of it

You asked me to stay again. I promised myself I wouldn't give in this time. Funny how I can promise everyone else the world and deliver but something so simple I can't keep to myself. As soon as I started to give you stopped me. Maybe you should go you told me. I silently thanked you. Crawling is more difficult than walking.

You have goose bumps.

Something so simple has made such a difference. It's like once again I'm looking forward to things. I can find a reason to get out of bed :)

I decided as long as I was going to hell, I might as well do it thoroughly.

How can one not be seduced by things said that sound like they come from romantic movies? Especially if in the next 20 Minutes you realize it's a romantic Comedy?
This wasn't supposed to happen. Really, it wasn't.
I tried my damnedest to get out of there with so much as a goodbye. Then it all came crashing down. You asked for me to stay. You said you loved to cuddle. That's not what I wanted. That was the last thing that I wanted. I hugged you as you lay sprawled out on your bed and told you that I did need to leave.
"Nope...I'll keep you just as Peter kept Wendy." You've probably heard this once and used it way too many times to count. Although I knew this I couldn't help but to eat it up. Somehow, I think you could see my weakness. I secretly wanted to live in a fantasy world, my own little romantic comedy. I knew then that I had to go. The mistake was, I came back. The next time was us showing our true nerd status. I admit yours overshadowed mine greatly, and I enjoyed every second of it. I should have known at that moment just to stay away, but I couldn't. You seemed so concerned as to whether or not I was going to stay. Even after the act was through, you seemed so afraid I would leave you. I couldn't bring myself to go. I should have gone.